And jeez, this is coming from a person who use to do this a lot....
"I am useless, I am nothing."
"I'll never be anything."
"This is all my fault."
"Nobody ever really cared."
Stop it with those thoughts!
Whoever says that to you, really has a problem of their own! You can't turn yourself INTO a problem by believing all of those things! No matter how hard you try, and you fail, you can keep doing it until you get it right and it can be perfect in your eyes!
You can believe everything people say. And to the people who say that to get attention-- thats not funny! There really are people out there who doubt themselves a lot.
As for me, I used to be so sad. As if! Ha, I would always be sad and down, and I used to be scared a lot.
I used to be messed with a lot in elementary (started 2nd grade) and barely had friends. I mostly used to sit alone and kids were (OMG SO BAD HOW DO I EXPLAIN) and they would talk about me, and all that other stuff, huegh, then I HAD became fat and fat. And, I'd be scared about telling my parents because you know (They're a bunch of drama llamas) and might cause a big scene.
I remember one time I got so sick and tired of it I did tell my dad. And he made me point them out. Omg, and after that I had felt so bad. But after that I moved on into 3rd and I had a full year of happiness. As for 4th, I did too. But in 5th, it started back up again. Oh those kids were terrible. Oh man, thinking about it makes me wanna go back in time and shoot them. lol
I got joked on because I had such a big chest. I was developing fast and the only other girl who was like that was NEVER messed with. Mostly because they were afraid of her. They'd always talk about me and try to throw insults at me by talking about my chest and how (ugly) I was. But one day, after all those years of hating myself, for the very first time in a long time, I looked in the mirror. I didn't find anything ugly about me, I looked in the mirror 100 times."What???" I turned cheek to cheek, I thought I was FABULOUS!
Omg, every other little girl had that "I wish I had boobs and long hair with pretty makeup" dream. But me??? Omg, I didn't even need to dream at all. I came back to school, walking all dignified and all. This one girl came up to me, she was talkin' about the "Least" attractive girls in class. And then she went like "We all know who's the ugliest." and turned her head to me. I turned around like "Whatever." But in my head I was like"
mmmh, gurl whatchu' talkin' 'bout??"
And honey children, after that, I became the "Whooo!" "Ahh~" to myself for the REST of the years. People still talk about me (but not in the open) and I'm like "Whateverrrr" and then I just feel like a bottle of some freakin' fabuloso.
And now, omg, honey child, them idiots just get on my last nerves. They can never shutup. And now, their only dream is to wish they could smack the hell out of me. And I love the heck out of it.
But anyways, besides the point. People want to bring you down because it's either something they want or something they can't get at all. Some people even like the way you might look. But instead, they wanna go and bash you about it by hiding what they really think. Some, just play too much. But really, you don't have to feel bad about yourself. You are something really delightful. When there is NO one else that you can come in contact with, THOSE are the TIMES that you really CAN'T doubt yourself. There are TIMES that YOU, must look up for yourself. YOU are responsible for bringing YOURSELF in your own hole by thinking "Oh, I can't do it, Oh, I can't do this, I can't" and not taking good care of yourself. You are beautiful. You just have to look in the mirror and smile.
Times when no one can help you, YOU HAVE TO HELP YOU.
Be dignified, be beautiful, be abstract and unique in your own way.
Cuz', RuPaul says " If you can't love yoself, how the HELLLLL you gon' somebody else????
CAN HE GET AN AMEN UP IN HERE????
I know its easier said than done, but you must think positive thoughts. Anti-Depressants and other emotional pills aren't gonna help you, because you think bad about YO OWN self.
Now, stay bright and beautiful, my honey children.